Do you know the horrors of insomnia? I woke up with such an odd and disturbed feeling, in both my mind and my body. I was racked with impatience, from the moment I came to consciousness. I flip-flopped on my pillow like a fish out of water.
My mind filled up with worry, which as you know is the opposite of praying: “Why isn’t that project working yet? Why don’t I have my own TV show yet? Why am I still paying down my mortgage? Why am I not yet financially free? Why can’t I do all the things I would like to do for my child? WHY?”
On my ankles, a familiar symptom was creeping up at the same time: a red, eczema-like set of itchy spots, just on the front of my lower legs where they meet the feet, where my socks would end (but I hadn’t been wearing socks). It was SO itchy that I was tempted to rake my fingernails across it, but I’d done that before and it hurt!!
What did it all mean? How could I fix it?
Impatience has been a terrible mental habit of mine for many years, and now it’s manifesting in my body. When a symptom goes from mind to body, that’s a sign it needs to get taken care of FAST or it’s going to get worse.
Even though the itching was flaming my skin, I ignored it and sank back into the pillow, closed my eyes, and prayed the Serenity Prayer. “Dear God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.” Then I was quiet.
The message came in slowly.
Rash = Rush. “Shannon, you’re in a rush.”
OK, that is definitely true. So if I slow down, will the rash go away?
“Think backwards in time. Turn the clock back three years. Where were you?”
I can do this, I can remember. Three years ago, I had moved out of the emergency one-room cottage and into a studio flat in Killarney. It wasn’t bad, it was in a great location, but it was tiny, and I wanted one room for myself and one room for my son, so that I could close the door and work while he slept.
My guides then showed me a short mental video clip of myself, waking up in a state of anxiety at 5 in the morning, in THAT flat in Killarney, asking the exact same kinds of questions, “Why aren’t I on the radio more often? Why don’t we have an apartment of our own? Why don’t I have my coaching group for women set up yet?”
Oh. I see.
I have all those things now, exactly as I had wished for them, and much more: a home that I’ve bought (and am still paying off!), many radio shows (the latest is on Gagasi FM, a station I’ve been eyeing for ages!), and a coaching group for women (the Seeker Sisters, which brings me joy every day).
It’s all about God’s timing, not my timing.
I tuned into my ankles, and they weren’t itching as much. I wasn’t rushing any more, I was lying still, and that was OK. My anxiety dropped from a 10 to about a 6. I could breathe.
Things change. That’s the deal with Life, it’s always changing. The Buddhists call this “anicca,” pronounced ah-NEE-chah. The impermanence of everything. The Christians say, “This too shall pass.”
Now, when anxiety and impatience crop up again, or when I get the ITCH to RUSH, I will look backwards in time: ten years, twenty years, and I’ll notice what I was wishing and praying and crying for then. Some things have come to fruition, some have not (thank goodness!!), and that’s all a part of the bigger plan.
What are YOU waking up in the middle of the night about?
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